last time on the phone?

this is bogged right after you hang up the phone... after i sms you... and before you reply me... (if you ever reply.)

some how i had a feeling that that was the last time in a long while that we will be talking on the phone... some how i had a feeling that that was the last sms that i am going to send you... unless you sms be back with a diff answer...

i dont noe wat to do.. i noe i am suppose to stop, but for the first time... i dont 1 it to stop... this is scary... im i prepared for this to happen? i really dont noe now... i tot i am normally the first to run when shit happens.. but now... y is my foot stuck here?

dont noe since when, one simple sms from you can really change my whole day... a gd morning sms from you can really brighten up my whole day... its scary that a 5cents can really change your mood for the day...

And now, i noe that i will not be getting this sms anytime soon... i tot you where prepared... but it seems that you have never reallly tot about this matter, or maybe you noe i was too sensible to make the right desision... you happily tot you can live with the 2 plan till i had second tots of the second plan... right back at your face?

its not an easy choice to make... but as much as i say option no. 1 is nv in my consideration, i can live with it if thats wat you want... i am not giving in to you... but rather, this time round... i am prepared for any of the desision that is going to be made... as much as i dont 1 2 lose a friend... wat ever choice you make... i hope that we can still be firends... or at least you can still treat me as ur firend...

somehow... since firday... though we agreed on option C... somehow... the next few days... i tot i was leaving out plan 2... maybe i was wrong... maybe i think too much... but i kinda enjoyed it... haha.. thanks for let the 3 days passed happily....

how do i feel now? lost... lost... and lost... cos i really dont noe wats on your mind... and you are not telling me about it... i tot i noe... but apparently... i think you yourself also have no idea wats on ur mind... or maybe you are just too tired to tell me... maybe i should really go buy DVD...

will you sms me tomorrow? will i still get a good morning message from you? are you asleep already? are you thinking of how to answer me? are you as worried as me? are you having sleepless nights again? will you remember to eat tomorrow? will i get to see you tomorrow? or have you at this point of time already deleted my number off your handphone?

if there was a reset button in everything... i guess... this is a suitiuation where we should press this button... not because i want to forget everything... but rather i noe that we are at a suituation that we just can make any desision..

So.. in the end... do i hate you for not replying my sms? nope... i noe you need time... but please dont take to long... this is a 'wait' that i will not have fun in... even if you want to avoid me.. please let me noe... so i noe that.. from now on... i will noe when to appear and when to disappear...

i said before... its not that i am stupid... but i just chose to act dumb when it comes to you... but this time round... i am really lost at wat you want... actrually... i think i noe the answer le... but the truth hurts.. just let me be in this dream for a night more.