the past or the future ?

Heehee… have not blog in a long time… don’t ask me y… heehee lazy… all humans are lazy.. I think my age is catching up with me…heehee… don’t noe… people change.. time change.. saw I show recently.. there is something a guy said… everyone seems to be moving on… but y are u leaving in the past… this sentence struck me… y am I atill leaving in the past.. the first time I blog… I said that.. I don’t ever 1 2 grow up… I guess I enjoy leaving in the past… haha… humm… don’t noe… this new year has already lasted for 2 months… wat have I done…

I have this tendency… to always have this cycle… the cycle of cutting out from the world… y does this always happen… I also 1 2 noe… met a group of old friends today.. humm… every 1 changes.. humm.. I changed also… humm.. or should I say.. I went back tome old self again… I find that recently… I don’t like to talk… don’t noe y… talking has already become a very tirey job for me… not matter to who… I think my communication is breaking down in this world.. hate to talk now… seldom call me friends now adays… don’t think I should ba.. cos don’t noe wat to say… heehee…

I always thik that… too keep our friends by ur side… you must put in effort… effort in meeting them… effort in talking to them… all those… but after today… everything is just so tireing… is there realy friends that will come and go… is there really friends that will stay forever…

Haha… I think… the biggest problem I have in the world is friends ba… is it because I think too much… is it I want to make all me friends have the same weight in me heart or that I am still single… haha… too free…no need to think of bf… haha… it may not be a bad thing… haha

Humm… don’t noe lar… just feel that… time changes everything… changes relationship… changes how I think… but have I grown up… or have I just went back to me old self again…? When will I grow up.. haha… learn something for me church members… did you pray….?? If u did… everything will be ok de… no worries… haha... leave my habd in the lord ba…