Sianzzzz....

humm... very sian... dont noe y... recently hate the weekends... haha... like nothign much to do... than have alot of time to think... and.. i hate to think.. haha..

humm... y there must be a title in the start of the blog... if i dont 1 2 put... how..?? can...??? i think will look wired... whahaha... so in the end... put some lame topic... haha... sianzzz....

i believe tomorrow will be even more sian... haha... cos... got to do accounts and something else lar.. dont 1 2 talk about... haha...

going out soon... have to go central and common wealth to settle somethings... than later going to office... have to xia dan for ping'er... yan jing over run again today... hai... she everyday over run... stupid molly... dont add 2 more days for her... i dont noe y... so evil.. hai... my poor ke ai de dao yan....

hai... i think my pms really affecting me... super moodless... super sian... super lalalalaing~~ i think i am down with flu also... me nose running away... haha...

wat you doing now ar ? haha... screaming around? haha... clean up the shit from the alive volleyball ? haha... and hor... movie can more than 2 ppl watch de... it makes no different to me... haha... thanks for letting me send you to your door step last night :)

Huh?

Ramdom blog... cos rotting online... dont noe wat better things to do... so... does not mean blog is created for people to pass their time online... ? humm...humm... than if thats the case... i think in the human evolution, blog is the ape and facebook is the human... haha...

humm... got another ramdom question... today i was going through all me blogs... hummm aparently.... there is about 85 blog entries and i cnanot remember all off them... note to self. dont write in codes anymore... haha.. if you dare, use real names... whahaha... hopes... better don... if not later i got to pay copy rights.. haha...

ok... maybe some updates of my current bear living conditions... i am still going this bloody project.... currently... not thinking too much... just 1 2 have fun and enjoy... letting my boss bluff me for another year... i think... haha... happy with the way things are now... cos project wrapping...

another tot... y msn provide a small area for people to put their photos by the side of their chat box... not every1 has nice photos to put de loh... haha.. but if you dont put... you will be offical known as the blue heading neckless man... haha...

today... i baked a cake for me firend... her bithday mah... so tot be a gd firend.... bake her a cake... lucky did not burn the kittchen down... haha...

so sian... dont noe wat more to blog... and.. and... who say movie cannot 2 ppl watch ? humm... dont noe... dont 1 2 noe... haha...

tomorrow elieen they all coming.. ablut 7 ppl... hear mama bear making jap food... humm... sounds intresting... but... meeting they all at 7... dont noe can make it back in time anot... feel like sending you back home leh... humm...

humm... should i cotinue to blog on ? like if i dont blog... nothing much i can do also... facebook cant help me kill too much time... hahah.... lalala~~

i think i shall conti this blog with the all time fav. RAMDOM BLOG!!! haha.. short... simple and nice... hahha

i think this form of blogging for tonight is really lame...
its late and i have not pom pom...
humm... y did i just use the word pom pom...
i think i am hungry...
i htinki just heard mrs koh blow her nose..
should i dc?
humm... wat are most ppl doing now.. sleeping or dreaming?
will you be happy if your nighmare comes true ? i mean... normally ppl go round telling other ppl... hope your dreams come ture... izzit night mare part of dreams ?
humm... i htink i shall go off line soon...
wat about you ?
i am really happy when i see your sms...
i am really feel liek sending smses to you.. but scared will affect your work..
so you sms me ok ? haha...
you noe wats better... you can call me... hahaha...
damn! you beat me to it... i wanted to dc first! haha...
ok lar... really have to go pom pom... i htink i smell from here to penang.. whahaha...
PENANG!!!

happy :)

last time on the phone?

this is bogged right after you hang up the phone... after i sms you... and before you reply me... (if you ever reply.)

some how i had a feeling that that was the last time in a long while that we will be talking on the phone... some how i had a feeling that that was the last sms that i am going to send you... unless you sms be back with a diff answer...

i dont noe wat to do.. i noe i am suppose to stop, but for the first time... i dont 1 it to stop... this is scary... im i prepared for this to happen? i really dont noe now... i tot i am normally the first to run when shit happens.. but now... y is my foot stuck here?

dont noe since when, one simple sms from you can really change my whole day... a gd morning sms from you can really brighten up my whole day... its scary that a 5cents can really change your mood for the day...

And now, i noe that i will not be getting this sms anytime soon... i tot you where prepared... but it seems that you have never reallly tot about this matter, or maybe you noe i was too sensible to make the right desision... you happily tot you can live with the 2 plan till i had second tots of the second plan... right back at your face?

its not an easy choice to make... but as much as i say option no. 1 is nv in my consideration, i can live with it if thats wat you want... i am not giving in to you... but rather, this time round... i am prepared for any of the desision that is going to be made... as much as i dont 1 2 lose a friend... wat ever choice you make... i hope that we can still be firends... or at least you can still treat me as ur firend...

somehow... since firday... though we agreed on option C... somehow... the next few days... i tot i was leaving out plan 2... maybe i was wrong... maybe i think too much... but i kinda enjoyed it... haha.. thanks for let the 3 days passed happily....

how do i feel now? lost... lost... and lost... cos i really dont noe wats on your mind... and you are not telling me about it... i tot i noe... but apparently... i think you yourself also have no idea wats on ur mind... or maybe you are just too tired to tell me... maybe i should really go buy DVD...

will you sms me tomorrow? will i still get a good morning message from you? are you asleep already? are you thinking of how to answer me? are you as worried as me? are you having sleepless nights again? will you remember to eat tomorrow? will i get to see you tomorrow? or have you at this point of time already deleted my number off your handphone?

if there was a reset button in everything... i guess... this is a suitiuation where we should press this button... not because i want to forget everything... but rather i noe that we are at a suituation that we just can make any desision..

So.. in the end... do i hate you for not replying my sms? nope... i noe you need time... but please dont take to long... this is a 'wait' that i will not have fun in... even if you want to avoid me.. please let me noe... so i noe that.. from now on... i will noe when to appear and when to disappear...

i said before... its not that i am stupid... but i just chose to act dumb when it comes to you... but this time round... i am really lost at wat you want... actrually... i think i noe the answer le... but the truth hurts.. just let me be in this dream for a night more.

Pretenders.

Don’t noe scince when, it seems like everyone around me can pretend very well… acting dumb seems to be like as easy as drinking water… damn it… people and learning fast and are becoming good in this game… every1 is like that… my boss… my friends… my colleague… I don’t believe you all are fake.. just that sometimes.. its better to act like nothing has happen before…

As for this and that… wat and wat… huh and humm… just let it be.. if you chose to tell… I will chose to listen… if you chose to keep quiet… I will chose to stay happy? Wahahaha.. don’t know wat I am typing… actually need not noe wat I am typing also.. its late at night le… and I dont have the mood to carry on… too tired le… maybe its time I should really think about stopping… after all… I think I need some rest… its getting too unhealthy for me…
Run... run... RUN!!!!

Monthly Special - Ramdom Blog!

12.47 - dont feel like sleeping....
12.47 - dont feel like thinking anymore...
12.48 - !!! the game i play.. the song so er xin...
12.52 - wasted my time on a stupid game!
12.53 - really want to noe wats going through your head...
12.53 - But i respect you... will not force you....
12.54 - bring molly out tomorrow.. shit...
12.55 - elieen convo tomorrow... will leave work early...
12.55 - should i skip class...??
12.56 - Since when, wat you doing is the only thing we like to say...?
12.56 - its going to be one soon...
12.56 - hate to think... but i am a bear... i have to think...
12.58 - i will try to be happy...
12.59 - please try to be also...
01.00 - Its one le!!!
01.01 - if only i can leave home...
01.01 - i am going crazy...
01.02 - there will be peace if everyone in the world can talk...
01.03 - should i have a new blog? haha...
01.03 - shall go changi to meet AL and vic for lunch one day..
01.04 - seems like tonight is still young....
01.05 - seems like i can dont sleep again...
01.06 - maybe i am wrong... maybe i will sleep...
01.07 - will things really be better is i shut up ?
01.08 - feel like sweepimg me floor...
01.09 - dont slap me!! haha...
01.10 - i think i think too much...
01.11 - the world dont revolve around me...
01.12 - power nap!
01.13 - end of power nap!
01.13 - time to pee...
01.15 - thats a long pee... haha...
01.16 - must shut up... cant ask!!!
01.16 - look at games! Stop thinking..
01.23 - this game is quiet fun...
01.25 - shit.. the game it not working... brain still thinking...
01.26 - locations!!!
01.32 - if you cant answer the Q... is it consdier a Q in the first place ?
01.36 - the game lasted me for some time... YEah!
01.37 - lets see whos online...
01.38 - wat the hell... its 1.38... not many ppl online de leh... stupid...
01.41 - need a power nap again...
02.08 -finished!!1
haah

in some way, i htink i should be happy that i am not the one... hope everything will turn out fine.

sometimes...

it is scary that... sometimes... you find out things that you dont 1 2 noe..
it is scary that... sometimes... there are somethings that you are dying to noe...
it is scary that... sometimes... there are things that you noe...

tot i saw something today.... but hope i am wrong.. but if it is true.. haha... i guess... better its like that... who am i to judge..

sometimes... things dont turn out the way you think they will.. but wat the hack.. who are you to control it... sometimes... if things dont turn out the way you want them to... maybe its better? or is it worst ? humm... life sux... shit happens...

seems like i'm in lots of shit... but wats new... thanks to me boss... i think i will be around longer than i tot... whahaha... will there be an end to it? maybe... or maybe... in the end... i still cant take the temptation... afterall... its its not that i hate the job... but when shit happens... running seems to be the best option...

its a super long night... a super quiet night... a night that i have to get use too... a night which once, i pass throught everyday, but now seems different... i guess it just how lifes goes...

looks like my new york trip is further than i tot... i hate to leave... but i have to go... boss ar... stop making me feel that i make the wrong choice by leaving...

i am not stupid... but i chose to be dumb when it comes to you...