22 !!!

a few more mins to me big 22 years old le... how ?? haha feels... sian... cos... alone in the room... heehee nothing much to do also... acturally got lar... sch work... but stuck.... heehee not planing to go to sch tomorrow le... heehee cos... cannot finish work ba... haha

humm... going to be 22 le.. what do i want the most ? haha.. i think is that i can grad from me degree ba... 1st class... hum.. dont htink will get ba... i hope for a 2nd higher... haha... hopefully... heehee humm.. but dont think can le lar.. cos past works have not been gd... heehee... hai... dont noe... sian with work...

2nd thing that i would want most is that i will be healty ba... hai... bu zhi bu jue... i already sick for 4 months le ba.. been in hospital for afew days... tha... things just come one after another... abit sian and dishearted le... seems like me body is nv going to get well... hai... first tummy ach... than leg pain till cannot walk... than hand pain till cannot hold chopsticks... than.. now... me leg blood vien explode... whole leg cover with red spots... and can feel that it is coming to me hands le... finger abit pain on and off... comment with this illness... heehee... some thing to watch out for... me tummy inside may bleed... heehee... sound scary..? i think it sounds funny... keep on remembering about the show da chang jing... heehee the part when she told the king... 'zhong yu dao le zhe ge di bu le....' haha... like waiting for me tummy to be like that... sitting down here... waiting to die... haha... haha nothign i can do about it... the red spots starting to become pain... but... dont dare to tell me mama... haha i also dont noe y... i noe me mama very worried ba... but... i guess i will be ok de lar... heehee... just so sian.. dont noe wat will come up next.... try to be happy and not think about it... it... it is just so visible.... affected by it... YAR! haha... i guess it is more of a disheartering ba... every morening waking up.. hoping it will be ok... but... every morning... wake up... still see the spots... sian...

my god did not forsake me... i think he is just testing me... but... i dont noe... 4 months is a long time ba... i dont noe how long more... i dont noe how much more i can take... how to cure an illness... when... i dont even have faith in it ? just lost...

haha... its me 22 birthday today... heehee... but.. nothing to be happy about... or at least now... not happy... in pain ba... haha.... so sian...

me homework how ? haha... i also dont noe... so sian... moving around in circles... dont noe wat me lecturer wants... i htink... he him slef also dont noe ba... MAKE UP UR ONW MIND OLD MAN!!! driving me mad.... haha... sick!!!!! hai... so much anger and hate towards him... haha... anway.... heehe dont noe lar...

wish myself happy birthday! haha oh yar... and me mama bear also!! haha