I am not alone...

haha... how come it seem that when ever i feel down.. than i ill remeber i can write in me blog... like most christians.. why only when problems arise, than they will think of god ?

not long ago.. was in chuch... wheni reliese something... beening sad or troubled is the base of human's feelings... being happy is a bonus that god gives us... we are sinners... humm.. this is how i feel... it may seems sad... but acturally... its is not... this are tests that god gives us... i guess... if we pass with gd grades... god makes us happy.. so we should strive for the best rite ? haha... does that sound better ? haha.. we are the chosen ones to be able to have these tests... haha.. i am facing 1 now... haha.. but i think... through god... it will be better...

i feel better... haha... i noe i will be... i may be lost... but god will nv let me be lost too long... how i noe..? haha there must be a reason y god leave me on this earth untill today... he chose not to take me ba... and now... he will help me in this shit ba... haha.. i am still waiting for him to tell me my purpose ba... or maybe... he has already show me... but i just did not bother to notice it... haha... anyway... jt want to thank god for not taking me home so early... for a start... i am abl to enjoy watching tv untill today... haha...

acturally... life is not that bad... haha... at least i need not to be nailed onto a cross... haha...

long time no blog

have not been blogging in a long time... lazy ? too much work? or just no mood??? haha i guess all this makes it up ba.. haha... anyway.. nothing much have been happening recently... maybe because i did not really entertain my firends or myself very much recently ba... humm.. i also dont noe why... or acturally.. i noe y lar... but i guess this is just me... i dont find the need to solve it... i just do it the easy way out... run... wahahaha... so wat really happen.. haha.. i think bits and pices have finally make up the whole picture.. than.. haha.. after seeing the picture.. haha.. i guess i am lazy to sort out the outcome.. haha.. thus i chose to just leave it and sie.. and hopefully carry on with my life.. unless?? irresponsible?? dont care? i dont noe.. maybe i am just tired ba.. tired that every now and than... things like this will rise... hum.. i hate seeing a full picture.. when u dont like the picture... u can no longer do anything bout it.. its too late... and.. when the picture is full.. there is nolonger any space for imagination ba..

haha.. was am i say... i have no idea.. i guess.. i am just complaining.. cos thing did not ture out the way i want it to be... but... if i think i another way.. y do things have to turn out in the way i want it to be... why must i be so self centered...?? i think its time for me to learn that this world is not revolving around me ba...