Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Today... by accident or chance? i deleted all my smses... haha... guess.... yar..... good? hello... how are you ?

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

The feeling is... humm... weird? from the start... i knew you wont come... for the start i told myself... dont worry... there is still alot of people.. from the start.... i was prepared for you not attending... but in the end... i was still very sad when i did not see you come... maybe its evil for me to say this.... but you were the only 1 i wish to see tonight... but... like i say... its ok... 明白的... as long as your happy... i nv expect anything de... haha... jia you :)

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Tokyo!

Tokyo! Haha… not a bad movie.. read abit of the review and hear from jie hui.. so thought… should give it a shot.. I guess wat sparked me to watch the show was about the second story… but after seeing the whole show… I guess I hated that the most.. haha.. I think cos there is not much special feelings about that show.. haha.. or maybe cause I don’t have any smart answers for that show… haha.. ok.. the re… re… I don’t do reviews de leh… haha…okok… the wat I think about the show thingy.. haha…

First show - Interior Design. (aka. Your not useless if you’re a chair)

Its about blah blah blah… girl turns to a chair.. want to know more about… pay to watch it ba! Haha… cheapos… haha… anyway.. yar.. afew questions after watching the show…
1) Why a chair?
2) Can you really wrap 11 presents with one gift wrapper?
3) Can you really put so much smoke in the cinema?

Anyway… only the first Q is important… haha… I guess… if every1 has a tag on them… no one will be branded ‘useless’ everyone have a purpose.. the actress turned into a chair… but y a chair… think about it… if there is no chair in the whole world… wont every1 have to stand..? how will you drive? Humm… a lot of things you do always links up to the chair… humm… let go chill… go where sit ar? Wah… so tired… lets find a place to sit… haha… suddenly tot of something… you will not lie down on the bed to try ur shoe… haha…

Will you rather have a table or chair? If your using the computer… you will have to stand up while using it… but if you have a chair… you can sit down and put the com on ur lap… haha… come to think of it… if there is no chairs… the whole orchard road will be filled with beds… wah… geylang goes orchard… haha… like it anot… things that may seems so simple… actually means a lot in our lifes… but I think its intresting the show use a chair to portray the female actress… haha… was it because she always bump around… that’s y… a chair will fit her well… but in fact…. With her sitting around… she is actually useful in her own way… humm… does that mean I will turn into a chair soon? Haha.. anyway… love her transformation for the human to chair…

Another intresting thing… wont it be interesting to share a house with someone whom you don’t noe… but actually, both of you have all the same habits? Wired… for an example… ‘A’ like to drink milk… but never likes to finish it… before he finish the drink, he will tilt the glass to rest next to a bowl, just to see how unbalance life is.. and leaves it like that… till he comes home from work, before cleaning it up.. thus, it can remind him of how his unbalance day have been… than… ‘B’ does the exact some thing everyday… he will only clean up the drink when he comes home from work… day in day out… actually, ‘A’ is cleaning ‘B’ glass of milk and ‘B’ is cleaning ‘A’ glass of milk… no one noes the other party exist in the same house… hummm… interesting? Weird? Scary? What will you do if this is happening to you? I guess I will want to meet the person… I mean who can be 100% the same? Who will be as lame as me? Haha… I guess the first think I will to ask the person is… do you feel my pain? Haha…

Second story – Merde (aka. Please cut ur nails)

Don’t really like this story… maybe cos I had such high expectation on it… and yet… it fail to deliever… maybe cause I fail to see the inner plot to the show… maybe I hate the colour tone… people who noes me… will noe… once the color is wrong.. IT KILLS THE WHOLE SHOW FOR ME!!! Haha… so yar… nothing much to talk about this show… except… please cut ur nails.. and… I love the whole tank in sewers idea… haha… classic! Haha…

Third story – Shaking Tokyo (aka. Press my buttons.)

Amoung the 3…. Loved this the most… haha… surprisingly, when I was reading the reviews, I hated this the most and tot it would be a waste of time… haha… cos… current situation, not in mood for love stories… haha… anyway… like the story in many different ways…

Loved the idea of hikikomori… go read up if you don’t noe wat it mean… I am not going to spend me time explaining it to you.. haha… anyway… can someone really leave alone for so long? No need to see or talk to ppl… humm… than like that they are not fake cos they don’t have to pretend to like people… no need to butt like people… but on the other hand… they are fake cause they are living in their own world?

Like how simple love can be… just forget about everything can go all out… and I mean it literally.. haha.. humm… if only liking someone can be so simple… haha… humm… but still don’t really like the idea of love at first sight… but considering the fact the he have not see anyone eye to eye for like 10 years… ok lar… I forgive him.. haha… but only the actor has this privilege… haha

Love the idea of having buttons… haha… izzit it simple… you can function with simple buttons… one button to remember… the other to forget.. one to start over… one to stay the same… been thinking… if you can have buttons on urself.. wat will you wat? The show shows the male lead pressing the love button… will you want that? Humm.. for me… I want the reset button... not because I want to forget… but sometime I wish I can start all over… I want the reply button… just to go through all the happy times.. but I noe… the only button I should use now is the let go button…

But in another way, its scary…when we all function to commands that are present into our brains.. then where will choice come in ? the choice of pressing wat buttons? The choice of having wat buttons? Can 1 function with only 2 buttons? Don’t want to think about it… can that be a button? haha

If you can push any button of another person… what will you push? Press the love button like the actor? i guess I will only press the happy button… J

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

我心痛不是因爲我要送你去見他。。
我心痛的是因爲我知道你不開心。。

我只能般小丑希望你能笑。。
暫時忘了煩惱。。

Friday, October 31, 2008

Something to think about....

Recently heard a lot of things… but was to lazy to blog… cos i guess did not really 1 2 use me brain to go into deep thoughts about such topics… but… its 3.24 am in the morning and had to help a friend lie to her bf… ha... guess that’s y I got the time and the right mind to blog ba.. haha… anyway… to those who have been dying to hear some sense from me… yap… get excited ba… I am going to tell you a story… haha… ok.. maybe a few… its going to be a long night.. and don’t mistake me for being emo.. just some thoughts…

Story 1:
Had to tell a white lie to cover for a gd firend… basically, she told her bf that she was meeting me but she went to meet someone else… trust me… I believe 100% that she is faithful to her bf… but… I guess… when you noe someone too well… you will noe wat will happen when you tell them the truth… Q: is that just understanding the person or loving the person too much that you don’t 1 2 hurt the other person… or do you love yourself more… thus, you 1 2 save urself from all the nagging? I guess its an equation that will nv add up… eg.

Loving someone = being truthful
Not wanting to hurt someone = lying to them..

So does it mean by not wanting to hurt someone you love = lying to them… than wat happens to being truthful? Thus, is that wat why there is something call white lie? Q: is white lies invented to make the person who lie feel better about it? I guess you have to be in the person’s shoe to understand what you should do…

There is no right and wrong when it comes to love… but when 1 decides to lie… is it considered wrong le? i think it’s a endless debate on wats right and wrong.. what will you do? Lie and pray that no1 will find out… or tell the truth and hurt the person upfront… Q: when a lie is being told… and its nv being found out… will it… after many years become the ‘truth’? Q: if I don’t tell you something happen.. is it considered lying? I mean… technically, its not I don’t 1 2 tell you… its you did not ask…

If its you… what will you do? how many times can you be truthful and how many times can you lie? I love you that y I have to lie to you… isn’t that very scary? What has our ‘love’ become? Understand each other too well? Knowing what hurts, thus I chose to keep quiet? I am really lost… I guess it really has to depend on the moment…

Once you chose to lie, you should never look back… you should nv regrate no matter wat happens.. i was in all three shoes before… to lie… to be lied at… and to help a friend lie.. which shoe I like the most?

To lie: the only 1 I hurt in the end is myself… even if I regrate.. its only a problem to be faced by me…

To be lied at: if the other part found out… every1 will be hurt… it’s a feeling that every1 hates.. and wat I hate most is that the person who lied to me will be hurt too… I can chose to pretent nothing happens… but can the person who lie do the same? That y I say you should nv regrate nor should you look back…

To help a friend lie: if all goes will…no prob… year later… it may turn out to be ‘the truth’ but if things don’t go the way… every1 will be hurt… isn’t that back to square one?

So after having break it down… which will you chose? For me, it will really have to depend on that moment, wat is needed… for me.. if I can make the person I love feel better… I will rather lie and keep quiet forever… cause I think at times… I noe clearly that if I lie… the person I love will be happy…

I had people asking me… y don’t you fight for the person you love… I guess… unlike some people… I strongly believe that I would like to see the person I like be happy… though at time I believe that I am able to make the person I like happy… but what happens when I see the person sad? I am ready to be the 1 to cause you sadness? Some people call that being a coward… others call it true love… to me… it’s all bullshit… haha…

Story 2:
I noe of a couple who kinda broke up recently.. after being together for 5 years… haha.. sorry if you see this entry.. haha… anyway.. actually I feel kinda sad for both of you… after 5 years… and this in the ending… I mean… if you still like each other… y? or maybe feelings have change? 5 years… its not a short period of time… neither is it long… but I guess I just felt that it’s a pity ba…

I guess that maybe its cases like this… I nv believe that one person is able to love a person forever… or maybe after a long time… than will people understand… loving a person does not = to having to have a ‘status’ with that person… Q: if love a person = setting the person free… than happens to the word “Forever” or “marriage”? is that y people invent divorce?

50 years ago… do peoples love for each other really last forever? Y our ‘love’ now adays start and end so fast? Or is it just back them… there is no such things as divorce… thus people just get use to having some1 by their side of the bed… and hack care about it… maybe now… considering that property is so expensive, even some1 sleeping by your side is also considered taking up too much space? Haha…

Q: what is more sad? 2 person liking each other but cannot be together… or 2 person being together cause they are just not use to watching movies alone?

Q: what is more sad? 單戀 or 暗戀?

Q: If love is nv fair… what will you 1 2 be… the one who loves more… or the 1 who receives more love?

To my 2 friends… thought is a pity… but this may not be the worst outcome.. I mean, if you still can be friends… y not… at least… you still can meet up… say hi… or maybe in the future… who noes… anyway… yar… happy if both of you are happy…

Story 3
I guess a lot of you heard from afew places before… that in this world there are 3 people that will look 100% the same… when this 3 people meet… it will be the end of the world… blah blah blah… all this bullshit… but that day… when I was hearing the radio…

If one day, you break up with someone you really love a lot… and after many years later.. you will like the person… you met the 2nd person that looks 100% like your first love… will you fall for the person…?

Sound romantic? Sounds lame? What will you do? will you chase the person? will you like the person more or lesser than the first? Will you be cheating you urself? I tot for a few days.. if its me.. wat will I do? at first I tot… maybe I will fall the person… but after that.. I felt that… y did I bother to think of that Q.. think about it… its rather bimbotic… it all boils down to liking the person for its looks.. than wat diff does that make you for the SPGs?

Like or loving some1 should be about the person… should be about loving wat the person is a whole.. Don’t you agree? If it’s by looks only… y don’t you go date a playboy calendar? But if that’s the case… than it leaves use with another Q… what about all the people with love at first sight? Is it a term to be used on bimbos only?

Humm… seems like there are a lot of unanswered Qs… will answer them… in the future ba… when I think of an answer for it… or if I happening to face this problems.. haha… so to conclude….

I like you for who you are and you can lie to me cause I will chose not to expose you… but in the end… if I noe… by me lying and regretting in the futher, I could change for your happiness in the end.. I will do it…

Been listening to S.H.E’s - 安静了… not a bad song… but I cannot tahan but to change some of the lyrics…

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里

梦想中属於我们的婚礼却
成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己 wo~
我选择不怪你

撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的

如今我还在原地
如今你已不在這裡
你却走回你的记忆
我一個人走不下去

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空
你是不是能够给我
沒有要求要你給我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口
我们各自苦痛

讓我一人成熟
沉默是我最后温柔
是因为我太爱你


只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一场雨
努力就有结局 wo~
撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你爱着你的
连假的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手
我卻不敢再握你手

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空
你是不是能够给我
沒有要求你能給我
你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口
我们各自苦痛
讓我一人成熟
沉默是我最后温柔
是因为我太爱你

I think I am good… I have officially changed this song to a even sadder song… I think I can consider to go write songs le… come on… tell me… my lyrics are better… haha….

Friday, October 17, 2008

I lied...

dont noe y i am blogging again... once i deciede not to blog anymore... cause... i dont 1 my words and feelings to hurt you or to be read or to be found out... but encouraged by a friend who said this...


I dont wana give up all on fate. and I dont wana think that its too late.. says:
infact my feelings haf been there for the longest time
I dont wana give up all on fate. and I dont wana think that its too late.. says:
but still im able to remain as a fren with u
I dont wana give up all on fate. and I dont wana think that its too late.. says:
but if aft knowing n u feel uncomfy then i guess its ur prob
I dont wana give up all on fate. and I dont wana think that its too late.. says:
tada


haha... i guess he read me.... i guess he noes wat i wish but cannot say... haha...

i guess... maybe one day you will see this entry... if i hurt you... all i can say i is i am sorry... you noe i nv want to hurt you... but sometimes... i really cannot tahan... i really hope you noe how i feel... i dont expect anything in return... but hope you noe... no matter wat happens... there is still someone here that still cares alot for you and only wants you to be happy and carefree....
Today someone asked me... Why u want to work at starbucks...? Why not try tcc...? Why die die must be starbucks... Can i say cause i only want to learn How to make mocca and chocolate chip ice blend...? Haha... Actually... The answer is not important anymore... Important thing is............ As long as ur happy...

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Too Bored In office... So... Random Blog!!!

6.32 - in office on a staurday... wats new...
6.32 - i hate it when i am right...
6.32 - enjoying the song 累格 by 戴爱玲
6.35 - Spent $20 for a word standby...
6.36 - Always on standby mode recently...
6.37 - Hope you will enjoy Dark Knight... hear its good...
6.38 - In office cos dont 1 2 be at home...
6.38 - Dont 1 2 go out cos not in the mood...
6.39 - Finish Xiaing dans..
6.39 - Someone ask, do i get anytime off work?
6.39 - If thats the only thing you are able to do now... will you want time off ?
6.40 - Feel like going art firend... but got something on later...
6.41 - Feel like getting drunk...
6.41 - Hate weekends...
6.42 - Dont think will eat later... too many things to do...
6.42 - Yar... did not say bye...
6.43 - If the whole world needs superman to save... who saves superman?
6.46 - Really going to go New York this year...
6.46 - I will make it happen!
6.46 - Whats worst? got no bf to go out with or got bf but dont 1 2 go out with him?
6.48 - Will have an empty seat...
6.50 - I chose to be at work...
6.50 - I think Mediacorp is a 'Male Company' Thus i's so attracted to it... haha...
6.57 - It took me 3 minute to spell patience...
6.58 - I am stupid... haha...
6.58 - Like me... Yan Jing also in office.. haha...
6.58 - Where to go drink later... hummm....
6.59 - Will Portsdown be too late?
7.01 - Humm... i think i am hungry... but dont feel like eating...
7.01 - Should i go Artfriend now ?
7.02 - Yan Jing's cat is called meow meow..
7.02 - Humm... should i go cut hair again ?
7.03 - Still looking for 累格 lyrics...
7.03 - Damn... i shall find it today... if not i am not leaving office...
7.05 - Shit... finger bleeding...
7.05 - is it true that humans only have 5 bowls of blood in them ?
7.06 - I wore my red jacket today...
7.08 - I am good... i found it!! haha...
7.08 - Shall post my fav. Lyrics... whahaha...
7.09 - 反正愛情裏頭 誰先放棄 誰就是第三者
7.09 - Damn... haha...
7.12 - Office now only got me... Yan Jing went to feed meow meow..
7.13 - I really like the song When you look me in the eyes...
7.14 - Humm... seems like this is a weekday... haha...
7.14 - Recently... i have a feeling the one who stole my name cards is someone else...
7.15 - I really hope i am wrong... but normally i am rite...
7.15 - Damn... i am good...
7.15 - I said it before... i am only dumb when it comes to you...
7.16 - Sian... i want to go artfirend... but stuck here cause of 8.30...
7.17 - Damn...
7.17 - Will my handphone ring later?
7.18 - Whats worst... look like 17 or act like 17 ?
7.19 - Once again... cant help but think i am bloody clever to come up with random blog...
7.20 - Scard but looking forward to Wednesday....
7.21 - Haha... ah ma sending me all the songs...
7.22 - Recently i think i over spend...
7.22 - 2 more weeks!! and it will be here... wahhahaha...
7.23 - Hope i got the name rite... haha...
7.24 - Feel like eating Korean BBQ...
7.25 - Shall go try the one at Dempsey...
7.25 - Want to join? Or you eaten le ?
7.26 - So Sian.. the time ticking so slowly...
7.26 - Finding somethign online... whahaha...
7.31 - Damn... cannot find it... shit...
7.31 - Time really tick bloody slow..
7.31 - Ok... decided... shall go behind to watch tv... bye