Attention!!! Emo blog ahead..!!!

dont noe wat title to give... just feel like writing... lost for words now... funny how i can change... 10 minutes ago... i was laughing about this whole matter... now... when the room is finally quiet... when you all have finally took your turns to go sleep... it's than creeping into me... its kinda scary... scared of losing wat i tot was great... scared of losing 2 firends instend of 1... scared that i will be back to the days of caring you from afar... humm.. but at least i can care for you lar.. whahaha....

when you told me to stay away... so it will be less painful for everyone.. i hope the pain will be lesser for you... for me.. its simple.. i can drown meself with work... friends... and family... haha... believe anot... i standby le.. wahaha.. i am well prepared... haha... and most of all... at the end of the day... wats most important is that... if you are happy... i will be happy too... though i maybe emo.. i fully understand that life still carrys on and this is only a crush that i will get over one day...

i will nv blame you for anything you do... i see it this way... liking some1 involes feelings... when feelings is involve, there is no right or wrong.. i cant blame something that cannot be put an answer on... maybe i was jus not gd enough for you... maybe i was not ur cup of tea.. maybe you were just to far to reach for me... maybe for the start... humm.. there was not a start... we were just friends that like to toilets and eat sweets..

but anyway... i like going to toilets and enjoy eating sweets... thanks for bring me to the toilet and buying sweets for me... :) if not along the way.. i would have got lost...

anyway..you project starting soon le... my started le... i hope... both of us will not let this affect our work... we are professional aint we.... or at least i believe we are...

i ever said... if it has to be someone else... i rather it be her... till now i still believe if its her, i will be happy or at least fang xin... at least... i noe... she can eat dinner with you everynight.. and need not go home for second round... send you to and off work... tell you lame things to make you laught... understand how tough your day is.. play with you till its late into the night...cycle with you... listen to english songs with you.. noe which english singer you are talking about... lock her car door when your in it... run to the carpark with you... bring tissue paper out... watch movie with you... talk to you... sayang you on ur curry puff hair... eat ice cream with you... Break your chopsitcks for you... haha... i am not treating you like a 3 year old... i like 1 to give you the best... dont 1 2 see you wake up extra earlier to take bus... dont 1 2 see you got no 1 eat with than dont eat... dont 1 2 see you nothing to do whole day rot at home... yar.. i noe she will be that kind of people.. that will not hurt or shout back at you.. give you all the attention that you want and need...

as for me... i will not be too far anyway.. i will be a call anyway... a ride away... i doorstep away... a meal away... i tub of ice-cream away... i location requisition away... haha.. i told you once... i will be here for you.. last time i was there... now i will be here... and next time i will still be here... for as long as you want and allow me... no matter wat happens... you wil still get my full attention... i am alway here for you to fall back on... dont have to feel pei seh... cos i am doing it willingly and happily... further more... i am rolliee polliee... very comfee to lie on... haha...

saw ur facebook status... want to tell you... but doesn't noe how... somehow... i feel that its either you 1 to tell me bye bye but dont noe how or you 1 2 tell her yar... wat ur thinking is not wrong... i think i like you also... but i dont noe how to tell you... i must say... when i say that status... i was heart broken... but i dont noe how or should i ask you anot... haha... i am not that gangho as you think i am... haha...

dont get me wrong... i am not pushing you away... i still very much want you by me side... but i dont want my feels to affect ur desicion... actually i noe it wont also lar... but just 1 2 tell you... no matter wat happens... i will not blame you and i will still be living me life to the very best and fullest... so dont have to worry for me... think for urself... be happy... make a choice and believe in it... be with some1 you truly like and stay happy... as long as you are happy... i will be happy...

Sun Flowers and White Roses...
Chicken Rice and Ramen...
IS and Juice...
Soft shell carb sushi and goza...
Face mask and toe nail polish..
choco pie and ginger biscuts..
Peanuts and oat meal biscuts...
tuna and cold trio...
mazda 6 and BMW X5
locking of car doors and running to the carpark..
eggs, luncen meat and fish filet...
fuck and kena sia..
si fat han and mouth itchy....

moodless....

i really think... when ppl pms... the really think and act like idiots... wahhaha...

actually... feel like shit now... really moodles... pisst off? nah.. dont think so... jealous? yar... i htik thats it... whahaha... dont not lar... noe what to comments.... alot to say... but really moodess..

humm... topice of the day.. reality and hope... haha... its a very fine line... if you hope for something... and you put in effort.... you noe the thing will turn to reality... or will it not...? humm... some times... wat you hope for will not turn out the way you like... thus the word backfire.. wahaha... humm...

another question, does hope = wish? its sounds like the same... humm... like me think... if hope is its according to the example above.. than somehow, hope seems more reachable.. haha... you dont hear the gennie granting you 3 hope.. cos hope is reachable... if you put in effort... she will only grant you 3 wishes... cos wishes are not reachable.. haha...

so does that mean... the things i hope for will not happen? haha... actually... yar... it did not happen...

after all this bullshit... i still feel like shit... moodless... haha... i had a hope today... that 2 people were to watch moives together... but seem like... this hope is not going to happen le... whahaha... so let me have another hope... hope i dont screw up today's outing with me lan lan mood... anyway... they say... 3 is a crowd... so lets hope... it will trun out to be a great outing... whahaha.... JIA YOU!! hope this hope will come true... i will put in effort... hahaa...

Wats Up!!!!! Random Blogging !!!!!!

1.29 Its late and i am not sleeping...!!! wats new!!!
1.30 You seem to be having problems with you connection...
1.30 I think i coming down with a flu! shit!!!
1.31 i am wearing me storberrry shoes.. whahaa... super girl!
1.31 i will got email to send... but no mood! :(
1.32 i just want to spend all me time talking to you... entertain you...
1.33 you are bored... dont worry... i will entertain you... :)
1.34 head itchy
1.35 the attack of the words..
1.37 trust me... if i can leave me house now.. i will!
1.37 it came to me.. if this whole blog is about you only... haha... is it too er xin...
1.38 haha... i am er xin wat... and tk,ck,bhb,hs... wats new... i am all in one!
1.39 its the full package... like it or not... whahah...
1.40 i enjoy disturbing you... heehee...
1.41 humm... when was the last time i blog ?
1.42 hope i can eat dinner with you tomorrow.. hai..
1.43 actually... i am kinda grounded for this period of time...
1.44 i found out something... i will be happy if your happy... whahaha...
1.45 and no... i dont treat you like a 3 year old...
1.45 three year old ppl dont go yang z... whahaha...
1.46 head count... see how many ppl online ar...
1.47 so late le.. still got 7 ppl online... whahaha... power!
1.47 but out of the 7 ppl... only 1 is important... whahaha...
1.47 all you kpos.. stop thinking funny stuff... you noe who you are....
1.48 so sian... i noe i should send emails... but i just like talking to you... wahhaha...
1.49 it just came to me... do you noe the 'you' i been saying is who?
1.50 no toliet aunty... sorry... its not you... nope... not you too coffee shop uncle...
1.51 did i mention, i got black cotton buds... whahaha
1.52 and me ass if filled with vit C
1.52 so late le... why you dont 1 2 sleep...? later you cannot tahan... :(
1.52 you noe you fall sick.. i iwll xin teng 1 rite? humm.. or maybe you dont... humm..
1.53 i think i must be sick... i like it when you scold me bodo...
1.53 humm... to the other kpos... you try calling me that... NV DIE BEFORE AR!
1.54 its obvious... i am an unfair person.. haha... and i like it... whahaha...
1.56 it just came to me.. if i lose this blog... will i rewirte..
1.57 i am lazy... screw it... wahhaha...
1.58 sudden feel like tke power nap...
1.59 wat are you doing now? still dling songs?
1.59 humm... wat time should i go office tomorrow..?
2.00 !!! you nudge me... heehee... not asleep yet ?
2.01 you going off le ? :(
2.02 and i think this ramdon blog has too end soon... whahaha....
2.02 untill now i stil think i am super clever to come out with the idea of ramdon blog...
2.02 its like writing poem that dont make sense...
2.02 but... but most poem dont make sense also wad... haha...
2.03 ok lar... you dc le... without saying bye... :(
2.03 to end of me blog... i would like to say... TIME TO SO SLEEP!!! whahahah